My heart is taking urgent leave!!

Tonight is the 1st night filled with loneliness. He is gone after all.I could not sleep since last night.Staying awake till 1 am plus and i still send him my very last sms for the night or rather the 1st sms for the morning.

Waking up suddenly at 630am,i sms him again wonder is he in the train or still in bed(haha!).Well,he is so well-manner as he is already reaching MRT station lu.Satisfactory,i forced myself to dreamland again.

At 710am,he gave me wakie call using his mobile.And he was already at City Hall transferring train to north east line.

Almost reaching office,i recieved his sms again telling me he is on bus to casueway lor but still i miss call him when i reached office.I am just getting use of doing it.

30 mins later,he say he is going to cross the causeway and will call me when he reaches hotel.i know from that moment onwards,my soul had left me completely.people closer to me can tell i am not myself today at all. Indeed i am.

for the whole day i am just doing thing like a robot with no feeling and move around like a zombie

As per re-planned schedule,he is to reach hotel by 2pm but no news of him.Thought runs wild,brain gone missing,concentration cannot be found.

Weirdo...an unknow number rings me at 4.30pm.Half heartedly, i hoping it was him.however,there is no one at other end.i hang up the phone sadly,blaming myself for thinking too much.Maybe it was just someone calling the wrong number.

Again,it rings and still the same number.I pick up impatiently and realised it him after all.I am so happy until don't know how to react.i just miss him too much to say anything,fearing i might in tears once again.

you may think since i had already hear his voice,knowing that he had already landed safely,i should have found back my heart and soul.No,it wasn't at all.

On my way home after my weekly gym,i sms him to update him some matters at home.How i wish i can hear his voice but i also know it wasn't convenient at all.

he told him when he is around,i wish the day could just crawl pass,but when he is not aorund,i pray for the days to fly fast.

Wonder who will know how one's feel when his/her love one is not around even for a short while??