My heart is taking urgent leave!!

Tonight is the 1st night filled with loneliness. He is gone after all.I could not sleep since last night.Staying awake till 1 am plus and i still send him my very last sms for the night or rather the 1st sms for the morning.

Waking up suddenly at 630am,i sms him again wonder is he in the train or still in bed(haha!).Well,he is so well-manner as he is already reaching MRT station lu.Satisfactory,i forced myself to dreamland again.

At 710am,he gave me wakie call using his mobile.And he was already at City Hall transferring train to north east line.

Almost reaching office,i recieved his sms again telling me he is on bus to casueway lor but still i miss call him when i reached office.I am just getting use of doing it.

30 mins later,he say he is going to cross the causeway and will call me when he reaches hotel.i know from that moment onwards,my soul had left me completely.people closer to me can tell i am not myself today at all. Indeed i am.

for the whole day i am just doing thing like a robot with no feeling and move around like a zombie

As per re-planned schedule,he is to reach hotel by 2pm but no news of him.Thought runs wild,brain gone missing,concentration cannot be found.

Weirdo...an unknow number rings me at 4.30pm.Half heartedly, i hoping it was him.however,there is no one at other end.i hang up the phone sadly,blaming myself for thinking too much.Maybe it was just someone calling the wrong number.

Again,it rings and still the same number.I pick up impatiently and realised it him after all.I am so happy until don't know how to react.i just miss him too much to say anything,fearing i might in tears once again.

you may think since i had already hear his voice,knowing that he had already landed safely,i should have found back my heart and soul.No,it wasn't at all.

On my way home after my weekly gym,i sms him to update him some matters at home.How i wish i can hear his voice but i also know it wasn't convenient at all.

he told him when he is around,i wish the day could just crawl pass,but when he is not aorund,i pray for the days to fly fast.

Wonder who will know how one's feel when his/her love one is not around even for a short while??

Dar, i know you are going away soon. Just want to share this song with you esp the last part. bcos that is what i wanna said to you too.

Everything goes wrong or just me only.

For the past few days,nothing goes smoothly for me.For the 2 days,i had been finding fault at him.I thought I'll be fine since I had told him my unhappiness on monday mornie through email.I thought everything had come to an end.

But I am wrong.And I only realised it during my visit to him on the same day coz he is not feeling well and my heart aches.By skipping my evening class,i thought of surprising him with my appearance at his doorstep.Instead, i think i surprised myself bcoz.....

For that whole evening,esp to the end when i was about to leave him though i am so reluctant,i feel that i had wasting my time to travel all the way from RP to TM.For the mmt when i had decided to do it, i only thought of do not want him to feel the same way he was being treated in the past.Though many times he will tell me,it does not really matter.But i just wanna to shower him with lots of love whenever i can do so.

but somehow i just duno why every words from his mouth don't suit my hearing that evening.Every words he said seem to tell me I am just too over-reacting.I start to throw temper at him.And i think i really mean it..Not sure did i shock him or rather did i piss him off.From then onwards,i start to pick on the words he used and show unhappy expression to him.

i know this is the end.I had to leave as we had nothing to talk anymore.At least I know I had nothing to talk to him anymore coz it going to be every words i say will be a hurting and sarcastic ones.

And whenever this happens,my journey from TM to BG is always the most sadist one after that.I just do not know why i can cry that easily and shamelessly.My eye just so pain but the tears cannot stop flowing.so sickening of myself.

I start to think what is wrong with me.or what went worng between us?What is it i am angry about?Why till today i still feel with gallons of jealous over that issue?Why am i wanting to hear something i like to hear and yet it would be hurting at the same time?Why am i behaving this way these days?

Many times,i wanted to hear his voices so much but whenever phone connected,i start to sound displeased on the phone.With such attitude,how will he want to continue the talk with me.

And the worst part is he will away soon.After so long,i will be spending this weekend alone.although it going to be a short one but i just refused to face the fact that it happening soon.

Maybe you will tell me it better to treasure the days both of you have now before he is leaving.I know this very well too.Sometime i was thinking if i going to keep on behaving in such attitude till he leaves.Will he give up on me when he return?

"which one bring more happiness? to love or being love?"

I want to love him but will it last as long as i wanted to......What is it that i need to search so hard...what is it that i still dun get from him..or its does not belong to me at all..

A shopping weekend

Having a birthday bash at FC and went home at 130am.Reached home at 2am & chit chat with a friend cum colleagues till 3am..deadly tired.

Guess what,the every next day i woke up at 7am.Reason is becos we need to collect our new pp at ICA.

As it was a sat and we forseen it going to be alot of people,we are to be the KSs one.Reaching there about 845am,the building is pack with "ants".By scanning our IC into a ticketing machine,queue no was issued to us.As our Q no was 23xx and current Q no was 22xx,so we decided to eat our breakie 1st and come back,thinking we should be able to make it just nice.

After 1/2 hours,we realised our Q no had already been called.Luckily, they had such services whereby a few counter is serving those missed number.

We doned everything and is only 10am.As it was super early,therefore we strolled to concourse(ex-blanco) and keypoint complex but only a few shops open.

At about 11+,we then strolled to bugis junction and the places already filled with shoppers.My goal for that day is to able to purchase my NY cloth successfullyand of coz not to forget to buy pressie for xiaomei too.So my search started.After buying pressie for xiaomei,i spot a top which i quite like it but sadly it was X.So i turn my head away.In the end managed to buy a top from 1 boutique but that is not the top i wanted so that will be my reserve pcs.

Saw a bag at BHG,but think that i might get it from robinsons sale,so KIV for later.

Before leaving bugis to city hall,we had our lunch at my favourite kopi shop which i was surpised that Kopitiam had bought over the shop.Luckily my favourite stall still remains.Then we head to City hall by foot.

At robinson sale,i was quite disppointed that the bag i wanted left with display set.But still i left the mall with a pair of shoe(again...haha)..

Not giving up,we went to metro,tangs and finally i got a new set at Scotts Istans.

Of cos,our last shop is no other than IndoChine @ wisma.We had a light meal and we gone home for the day.

Overall the whole journey is a fruity one but still my goal was not accomplished to the fullest.Maybe i will try again when he is come back tournament...Oops!!

A uncomplete shopping achievemet in a rainy day

Today is the 1st sat of the month.I decided to work for this sat so that the rest of the sat i wil be free. likewise shermin pop in too..

At 1pm,we left the office with bright and suny weather.shermin meets up with friends and for me as usual la,i pop in planet fitness and took a quickie shower before meeting up with DK.

While walking to bathroom,i met some regular gym mates and nearly kanna drag to attend so diffcult step class but phew my rescue is i did not bring gym gear..haha

Shortly after,my gym mate walk into bathroom with a puzzled expression and i find out that she is amused that there is no sign of usual fans of jeremy..deep thought for awhile,i shout out that jeremy is not teaching wor as i overheard some gym mate talking about it on wed class @ STC.

I told her that michelle wil be covering step and body attack.tell you her expression is so cutie and i watching her pull out her hp and start calling her kaki for confirmation...haha

While walking pass the classroom, i saw there is no one except michelle in the class...i wonder will there is anyone for the next class..

DK already waiting at the lobby..itch legs bring me to G2000 boutique @ OUB center,itchy eyes and hands help me spend $$ lor ..then we made our way to bugis hawker center for our lunch then to si ma lu temple.Alamak..seeing people walking with wet brolly,we know the sky is crying hard..though we had a brolly but somehow is just too mini for us as the rain is heavy lor..

Finally,we reach the food center and rain pour heavily again.Quite disappointed when fruit juice was served,it look so watery and tasteless lor..maxwell one still the best..

Seeing the rain drop turn small,we quicken our pace to the temple.Bcos its a new year,i decided to "qiu qian" to see how my luck goes..then we fight against the rain and decided to shop at OG building..hoping to find myself a top and bag for chinese new year.

Then i realised something.DK don't look good on his face.True enough,his back is giving him abit of discomfort so i faster conquer a seat at the shoe section for him to rest while i do my rounds.

Though saw a eye-catching shoe,i have no mood to buy bcos DK look sick by now.Therefore i suggest to go home straight and i did not throw temper wor..heehee

Upon reaching home,he snores like a piggy..haha..truthly he is damn tired and i enjoy the kuso show on TV while waiting for dinnertime...=p

A painful experience

Oops..i guess my friends around me must have thought that my blog will no longer active...sorry guys!!!

let me see when is my last log in..Gosh!!!i have not been blogging since my leaving and return from New Zealand...

Ok i shall start all over again with a new year of 2008.Hope i will stay constant this time..=)

My new year eve is not a fancy one this year.simply no mood to celebrate like before.our company declared 1/2 day on that date so i went to JB for a movie n dinner on that evening.then stay at home n watching SCV showing the NY countdown in taiwan.it was so happening that i decided to join them this year end..haha

On the actual day,i just slack myself at home with tibits n DVD.boring right??

Since last sunday, my whole back wasn't in good condition and never the less i still carry on with my steps class on sun and wed..(never die before loh)

Until today i cannot tahan and decided to search for tuina.Call up my regular shi fu,can you imagine when is my appt fix to 5 MAR 2008 loh...gosh can't imagine that his business is so damn good.but till i reserved that date just in case la...

Thank god,i was recommend to a bone setter and was told he is kind of expert but charges abit steep.Careless,i go for it.Called him up but i was told to call again at 11am..heehee i think i must have wakie him cos i buzz him at 9am loh

Finally reaches him,i was being put to 7pm slot. thought of OT-ing today but now i think my backbone is impt than everything else.

Reaching there on time,he don't even ask me anything and just ask me to lay flat on the sickbed.Nightmare begun!!he just went on cracking all part of my joint in my body mercilessly..i just went on screaming as if i kanna chasing by a tiger...but i must say the after feeling is damn shiok.after all the cracking, he start to press pressure on those part which hurt previously was longer in pain...amazing man!!!

As usual la,he wants me to rest with no exercise for at least 2 weeks just sleep eat n sleep(sound like a baby)...phew man...no class this sun and the following week till 14 jan i guess.Hope i can jump and fly by then...

but for now, i feel aching all over my body.maybe bcos it has been always at the wrong position and now it was being adjusted to the right one therefore need some time to get use to it new "house"

Cross my finger and pray i will recover fast fast....

22Sep07-from Christchurch to Lake Tekapo

Touch down at christchurch airport,i cannot believe i have left SG & had come all the way to here. Full of excitement waiting for us to explore.

All of us are just so crazy and excited.

We are muz take good care of this MPV cos it going to be with us thru thick & thin...
Our 1st stop of meal after collecting our MPV,we had fish & lots of chips in this shop but yummy.

Due to some error during fotos attachment,the place which we going to stay unable to shown. so sorry about it.