Upset..Disappointment..Hurt

Tml is the day i waiting for and finally it comes.But now i am not happy at all.Bcos there is one thing spoilling my plan or rather our plan.And there is no alternative to get this thing done.Die Die also muz follow the rules.

I am so upset now.I have no mood to look forward too.Out of sudden,i feel tml is just another normal day.But it not lor..This date is a very impt day to me.Why always this sort of thing muz happen at this time lei...

Many times,I feel that something is playing a joke in my life.This kind of things does not just happen once but many many times till i can sense that something is just blocking my way.

I just want to lead a normal life..why is it so diffcult?why do i have to hurt some1 out there who adores me alot?Did i brought this matter up with my own hand?Is it i have to blame myself for the state i am now?or is it a hint of something which i think i will be shock to accept and also refused to accept if this turned out to be true....i do not wish to think about it further..

I am so angry with myself.Why am I always have to make others to suit my way? Happiness is not just one party responsibilities.It consists of 2 person.

I feel so useless and helpless.I can't solve the situation but to follow as being set.Bcos of this,I was forced to be part with my love one on such an important day.No one is happy about this..

I should blame no one but myself..For this very moment,i am extremely hate myself so much that i wanted to let go of everything...maybe this will better for me...